What to do when you're empty.

(It doesn't require cash)

This week I am empty.

I wanted to show you that too. It’s part of everything. Running out of fuel for a thousand reasons or feeling frozen or stuck.

I tried to force myself to write a couple of ideas that aren’t yet ripe.

I tried to woo inspiration with a playlist.

I sat at my desk and assumed if I just waited and pushed the buttons on my keyboard it would eventually emerge.

But it didn’t.

And at least this time I know why. After almost six weeks post foot surgery and a really tough winter that is finally trying to break up, I just want to go for a walk with my dog. And I can’t yet. And I’m feeling so much grief about that. My body is longing for a reality that I don’t have access to right now. And that makes me think of the reality my heart is longing for in our world that we don’t have access to right now either. It’s really easy for that grief to get big.

It doesn’t mean my business is stupid.

It doesn’t mean I’m lazy and have lost ‘it’.

It doesn’t mean I won’t write something brilliant later or tomorrow.

It just means right now I have to find a way to be kind to myself.

That is a reality that is available to me right now. A decision I can make.

Self care isn’t always just the pleasurable stuff, sometimes it is the relief of pressure from inside yourself.

Exhale. Take care out there.

Susie

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